45 and still fighting the fears

I always seemed to have 2 sides...sometimes shy and sometimes outgoing.

In 7th grade, I signed up to read the morning announcements over the PA system. I was not at all anxious before hand as I had never had any real bad experiences in this way. As I began reading the daily news, I started hearing my voice reverberate through the entire school. It really caught me off guard and my voice began to shake and I could hardly croak out the rest of the messages. But croak I did and it was a totally humiliating experience which I have never gotten over. From that day on, I was never the same...always having way too much anxiety over any oral presentation. I never have had as bad an experience as that day, but still it haunts...I am now 45 years old and have recently gotten a teaching job and it is very difficult for me to handle the public speaking parts.