how i manage the process

I have had a problem with public speaking for years, but the most ironic part is I am actually an excellent public speaker. But for the life of me, I get completely freaked out.  The most bothersome about it is that sometimes I actually am not as nervous as I am other times, and that uncertainty of how I will react on that day is what is the biggest variable that makes the thought of that day coming so grueling.

I can point to dozens of very successful presentations where I walked away feeling so empowered and so excited that I could not wait to do my next public speaking event, but that only lasts so long.