I am 25 years old and I was fine all my life until shortly after my 20th birthday.I was at work and a co-worker made me blush over something silly which wasn't a big deal but then some of the other girls started making fun of the fact that my face was red. Suddenly I started to feel extremely nervous, my lips started quivering, and my heart started beating harder than it ever had.
I then became anxious of going to work the next day. I worried so much about it that of course the next day it happened again. And again my co-workers teased me thinking it was cute and not understanding what I was feeling. I quit that job.
This fear worked itself into all aspects of my life and has caused me to turn down basically any situation where the attention might be drawn to myself. And cause me to not have fun in a situation that would have been great a few years earlier.I can't even play a board game because I only think about how my hand might start shaking on my turn and I am sure that everyone is watching me for the same thing.
At another job I had everyone had to have their lunch together in a lunchroom. I would spend my whole lunch break freaking out that someone might want me to say something. One day I lifted my hand off the table and there was literaly a puddle of sweat where my hand had been.
Anyways sorry to make a short story long but my main problem is that because this has only been a problem for 4 years I can still remember the way I was ( outgoing ) and I refuse to accept this as part of my life. I hope that someone can send in some useful information.
I then became anxious of going to work the next day. I worried so much about it that of course the next day it happened again. And again my co-workers teased me thinking it was cute and not understanding what I was feeling. I quit that job.
This fear worked itself into all aspects of my life and has caused me to turn down basically any situation where the attention might be drawn to myself. And cause me to not have fun in a situation that would have been great a few years earlier.I can't even play a board game because I only think about how my hand might start shaking on my turn and I am sure that everyone is watching me for the same thing.
At another job I had everyone had to have their lunch together in a lunchroom. I would spend my whole lunch break freaking out that someone might want me to say something. One day I lifted my hand off the table and there was literaly a puddle of sweat where my hand had been.
Anyways sorry to make a short story long but my main problem is that because this has only been a problem for 4 years I can still remember the way I was ( outgoing ) and I refuse to accept this as part of my life. I hope that someone can send in some useful information.
